Right...I do have another blog, but that is like centuries ago and unedited...Felt like blogging now, but can't remember my username and password!!! hehe...SO...I created another!! So what??!! You've got a problem with it?? Come find me then!!!
Anyway...2 months+ of hardwork...Gone in just a flick of ur finger...NO!! I should say when they say "You only have 5min left to complete your paper." This really makes me feel shitty...Today, at 3pm, I had my Specialist Maths Common Test 3(more like monthly). I worked so hard...did every single homework teacher gave, concentrate in every classes, and attempting questions teacher never asked to do. All vanished in this afternoon at 4.30pm. I did real real real badly...I was really sad and down and emo, it is either i have no talent, or its either i panicked during exam. During classes, at home, I can seriously do almost any question!! But when it comes to the EXAM HALL!!! All my knowledge..POOF!!! VANISHED!!! I WAS SO SO MAD AT MYSELF!!! HOW CAN I BE SUCH A FOOL!!! I recieve a warning letter from the college's management last few months, saying that i must perform in this exam today of mine. Cause, i've been not doing properly since i joined the classes. If i fail my this paper, I'm doomed. I won't be in my lovely class S9 anymore. I might be even working somewhere selling chicken rice. My life, my dream is doomed. My dearest would even looked down on me. Everyone will look down on me. Everyone has been putting high hope on me, saying always that i'll be successful, that i'm smart, that i will excel in everything i do. NONE of my friends, family & most importantly, my dear Winnie never ever looked down at me before. They never did, although i didn't do good in my studies, they still believe i have the "hidden" abilities to do so. I disappointed everyone that put hope on me, my future is going to be doomed. After the exam, i seriously had no mood. I had to fetch Ken Seong & Winnie back. They saw my disappointed look, both of them telling me to no worry so much, that i'll pass my exam, and i will stay in the college to continue my studies, and get over the exam and concentrate on my coming task. I really really wanted to cry at the moment i leave the exam hall. I really did. I wanted to scream as loud as i can. I wanted to punch things. To throw things. And do anything to clear my mind. So, after fetching Winnie & Ken Seong back...I went to Southern Park basketball court to find my friends there. There it was, releasing my stress and sadness by shouting at my friends like crazy mother fucker. Sorry dear, i know you tried to cheer me up. Thanx dear...I really appreciated it...But i just can't shout at you...So i choose to kept quite instead. Anyway, at basketball court. It was quite a relief to throw the balls and shout at my friends. I never scored so many times before shooting 3-points. Hyon-Xhi said "WTF?!!! This is what you call exam stress??!!" I feel kinda nice, running around, shooting balls, shouting, chatting, crapping, laming around and such...I asked them to go dinner together, feel like getting out and release some stress. So i went dinner with Hyon-Xhi, Edward, Gan, Chong Wee & Alvin. We had dinner at a restaurant called "Old Town Kopitiam". We had fun crapping about the Kopitiam, saying that the flies, the cups, the style ppl should talk there, everything is related to the real "Old Town Kopitiam" style. Gan actually reach the restaurant when we finished our dinner. Before that, i gave him a call.
Me: Hey dude! We are here already!
Gan: Where??
Me: You know where is the Bukit Tinggi's Bread Story right? We are right beside that shop...You know?
Gan: Yea i know, what is the restaurant name?
Me: Oh, Old Town Kopitiam, just right next to Bread Story.
Gan: Oh okay.
Me: You coming now?
Gan: Yea, coming out now.
Me: Alright, ciao!
Somewhat 10 or 20 minutes later...Gan failed to show up early. We were wondering where is he??? So I told them he said he's "coming". At these moment, something dirty struck the mind of me, Hyon-Xhi, & Edward! ahahah! Guess what? Our mind went to the side that HE'S CUMMING!!! ahahaha!!! So, we started all these "COMING" thing. We kept crapping about "COMING" when we went mamak later. It was so so funny! I really missed the moment in secondary school. Where we always hang out together always during break. We will always crap lots and lots and lots of stuff. We usually had laugh of a lifetime. Serious! It's all insiders joke though...But it was really fun... I usually laughed till my throat actually feels dry and itchy...Too much of laughter. But time wasn't permitting me to stay anymore longer in the mamak with my friends. I head home sharp at 11pm. And reach home and started blogging now. And the thought of my exam came back to mind. I was and am really really disappointed with myself, i'm such a useless dick. I was hoping to get an excellent result, targetting something like 15/20. But i feel, I'll get somewhat like 2/20 now. Sigh...I'm really really angry... And for those who didn't concentrate in class, didn't do their work, play games always, skipping classes, loitering around...If they get higher than me, it's not fair compared to my hard work and understading during classes and lectures. Wish a lightning would struck me in the early morning and either let me be dead or give my brain cells a lil' jumpstart to be more intelligent and not too forgetfull! But, i should learn by now. I should never put too much hope on anything. When your hope fails, your heart sank down deep under the ocean bed. But now, i must cross my fingers and hope a lil' that Mrs.Chong would understand my situation, and she will help me out. I shall prepare to be expelled by the college...forever...I think i should be sleeping now. Have to wake my dear up to study at 5am. and also wake up for college tomorrow. So long...Ardios...
Playing Now: The Clash - Wrong 'Em Boyo
Anyway...2 months+ of hardwork...Gone in just a flick of ur finger...NO!! I should say when they say "You only have 5min left to complete your paper." This really makes me feel shitty...Today, at 3pm, I had my Specialist Maths Common Test 3(more like monthly). I worked so hard...did every single homework teacher gave, concentrate in every classes, and attempting questions teacher never asked to do. All vanished in this afternoon at 4.30pm. I did real real real badly...I was really sad and down and emo, it is either i have no talent, or its either i panicked during exam. During classes, at home, I can seriously do almost any question!! But when it comes to the EXAM HALL!!! All my knowledge..POOF!!! VANISHED!!! I WAS SO SO MAD AT MYSELF!!! HOW CAN I BE SUCH A FOOL!!! I recieve a warning letter from the college's management last few months, saying that i must perform in this exam today of mine. Cause, i've been not doing properly since i joined the classes. If i fail my this paper, I'm doomed. I won't be in my lovely class S9 anymore. I might be even working somewhere selling chicken rice. My life, my dream is doomed. My dearest would even looked down on me. Everyone will look down on me. Everyone has been putting high hope on me, saying always that i'll be successful, that i'm smart, that i will excel in everything i do. NONE of my friends, family & most importantly, my dear Winnie never ever looked down at me before. They never did, although i didn't do good in my studies, they still believe i have the "hidden" abilities to do so. I disappointed everyone that put hope on me, my future is going to be doomed. After the exam, i seriously had no mood. I had to fetch Ken Seong & Winnie back. They saw my disappointed look, both of them telling me to no worry so much, that i'll pass my exam, and i will stay in the college to continue my studies, and get over the exam and concentrate on my coming task. I really really wanted to cry at the moment i leave the exam hall. I really did. I wanted to scream as loud as i can. I wanted to punch things. To throw things. And do anything to clear my mind. So, after fetching Winnie & Ken Seong back...I went to Southern Park basketball court to find my friends there. There it was, releasing my stress and sadness by shouting at my friends like crazy mother fucker. Sorry dear, i know you tried to cheer me up. Thanx dear...I really appreciated it...But i just can't shout at you...So i choose to kept quite instead. Anyway, at basketball court. It was quite a relief to throw the balls and shout at my friends. I never scored so many times before shooting 3-points. Hyon-Xhi said "WTF?!!! This is what you call exam stress??!!" I feel kinda nice, running around, shooting balls, shouting, chatting, crapping, laming around and such...I asked them to go dinner together, feel like getting out and release some stress. So i went dinner with Hyon-Xhi, Edward, Gan, Chong Wee & Alvin. We had dinner at a restaurant called "Old Town Kopitiam". We had fun crapping about the Kopitiam, saying that the flies, the cups, the style ppl should talk there, everything is related to the real "Old Town Kopitiam" style. Gan actually reach the restaurant when we finished our dinner. Before that, i gave him a call.
Me: Hey dude! We are here already!
Gan: Where??
Me: You know where is the Bukit Tinggi's Bread Story right? We are right beside that shop...You know?
Gan: Yea i know, what is the restaurant name?
Me: Oh, Old Town Kopitiam, just right next to Bread Story.
Gan: Oh okay.
Me: You coming now?
Gan: Yea, coming out now.
Me: Alright, ciao!
Somewhat 10 or 20 minutes later...Gan failed to show up early. We were wondering where is he??? So I told them he said he's "coming". At these moment, something dirty struck the mind of me, Hyon-Xhi, & Edward! ahahah! Guess what? Our mind went to the side that HE'S CUMMING!!! ahahaha!!! So, we started all these "COMING" thing. We kept crapping about "COMING" when we went mamak later. It was so so funny! I really missed the moment in secondary school. Where we always hang out together always during break. We will always crap lots and lots and lots of stuff. We usually had laugh of a lifetime. Serious! It's all insiders joke though...But it was really fun... I usually laughed till my throat actually feels dry and itchy...Too much of laughter. But time wasn't permitting me to stay anymore longer in the mamak with my friends. I head home sharp at 11pm. And reach home and started blogging now. And the thought of my exam came back to mind. I was and am really really disappointed with myself, i'm such a useless dick. I was hoping to get an excellent result, targetting something like 15/20. But i feel, I'll get somewhat like 2/20 now. Sigh...I'm really really angry... And for those who didn't concentrate in class, didn't do their work, play games always, skipping classes, loitering around...If they get higher than me, it's not fair compared to my hard work and understading during classes and lectures. Wish a lightning would struck me in the early morning and either let me be dead or give my brain cells a lil' jumpstart to be more intelligent and not too forgetfull! But, i should learn by now. I should never put too much hope on anything. When your hope fails, your heart sank down deep under the ocean bed. But now, i must cross my fingers and hope a lil' that Mrs.Chong would understand my situation, and she will help me out. I shall prepare to be expelled by the college...forever...I think i should be sleeping now. Have to wake my dear up to study at 5am. and also wake up for college tomorrow. So long...Ardios...
Playing Now: The Clash - Wrong 'Em Boyo
Hah! Another insight into your life. :)
Chill dude.
You'll do fine, not to worry. You're just being the paranoid self that you are. -_-
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